so... When?

I realized we wasnt meant to be together. Its okay. Im not tripping off it. You made me laugh, cry, smile. shit sometimes u was my play dummy cause u just was. But relationships are relationships. Its a learning experience. Just cause YOU fucked up, JEAH U fucked UP NIGGA , its not gonna change my whole perception on relationships however, its just gonna make me wiser on what to do and what not to do. Im sitting here on my computer chair typing away and at the same time reminincing about all the good times in every relationship i had. Yeah some were off the wall and others just so totally strange. But i dont need to be in a relationship to be happy. And neither do u. Its a relationship, we in high school (NOW COLLEGE), WAT THE FUCK?... im not saying having a relationship is bad or anything but it just crazy thought. For the past week all these different guys have come into my life and its like everyone has something i totally admire and/or like. Man i dunno about the girls reading this but i wish i could just mash them (da guys)up together nd produce the perfect "MAN"... now dat would be wonderful, but however i have to settle with the unprefection of a male...... Its 11:07pm and im wondering when the next guy is gonna role into my life. then again he can be there already nd i not knowing. Where are u hiding at?..When am i gonna see u?...Will u make me smile?... how will we meet?... or Have we already met?... Come on... any day now........... BUT matter a fact, after you im done for the year...BUTthen again, you never know...