i'll be back in a few months and laugh

You fooled me completely. you had me thinking you was something but ended up being nothing. I was kinda of questioning your intentions at first and it just wasn't sitting right with me but you melted all that away with time. I cant even remember how we started talking...... over the summer time when bordem hits in every direction facebook came to our rescue. You we happen to be online at the same time and had the "my school is better than yours convo" frequently until i got tired of typing and gave you my number to call me. Ever since then its been a roller coaster. Soguess i do remember after all. You portrayed yourself as a person who did no kinds of wrong and i was fooled by it. Silly me. I dont know where to start but know im pissed. I sat and thought about what went wrong in the timeline and couldnt pinpoint the problem. You was the same person who called my phone off the hook from the months of july till september but now you claim you hate talking on the phone... so i must have BULLSHIT written on my forehead......
Here's the thing, i wanted you to be real with me 100% but you couldnt even give me that. You painted a picture of someone that wasn't trully you and i fell right into with. Call me Guliable but it sounded so real. Talking to Keesh last night and she said something to me about there was probably signs throughout the whole talking sigment that said it wasnt going to work but when you like someone that much you are willing to ignore it, and that i did. Dude didnt even call me on my birthday and i let that slide.... then times i knew he was lying and i didnt bother to call him out on that..... then the major one folks... when i would go to his school to visit friends you would expect a dude im talking to will make time even if its short notice but NO!!! He would be to ingulfed with his bruhs or other females, and i being to wrapped up with would let that slide. Foolish of me, i got soft, dont worry never again. So i finally decide to ask him if its going anywhere and the bastard said no. So the whole time im thinking dude could have told me his shit a long time ago instead of wasting my time and money (yes females i did). I would have respected if he told me instead of leading me on. You know what i take it back, he didnt lead me on he just had a believeable mouthpiece. After writing this note i feel free from my feelings and now realizing you once was and what will never be. You are a past that will always bittersweet because there was a time where you made me happy, well times have changed. So i will take this as a lesson, a never will happen again, a learning experience. Why make the same mistake twice? You live and you learn. and i did.

So to u Vil

Vil.... inspired me. We was talking on the phone and i was praising him about his blog and how much effect it had.....then i told him i haven't written a note/blog in such a long because i haven't been inspired... well here it goes, to my inpsiration.
Nate..... amazes me. I hate is ignorance but i love his intelligence. Its always bittersweet with him. I can argue with him over something dumb... then next minute we having a playful conversation about who's cellphone is better. (nothing beats the instinct buddy). I want him to go to school nd become a journalist and become a writer in a music magazine. My curiousity is driven. My heart is open. My mind is yearning for knowledge.
I used to want to do everything. Everything and everything. Then i realized i can only do one thing at a time or i will end up doing nothing. Remember the commericals with the slogan "impossible is nothing"..... catchy. Better yet, the ones back in the day with Mia Hamm nd Mike Jack.... "anything u can do i can do better....."
I was disappointed with the super bowl commericals this year yet again. smh.
Dawit...... draws my interests. I'm stuck in bed due to me being sick, and he finds ways to make me smile by just simply having a conversation with via text messages. Wonder where it will go. Wait, everytime i wonder i think bad things happen so ima stop wondering. lol......